Full moon rises from the East

Full Moon greets me tonight as I keep reading Finland's history. That's why I shouldn't post anything today but I just had to write about the Moon. I guess I have an obsession of the Moon. I often find myself staring at it. I don't know if there's some psychological explanation for it, but the Moon is mesmerizing. Purely magical.

Had to use Deviantart-stock for this one, since I have no camera nor any pictures of the Moon.

Wolf moon Rising

The golden part of the fall is about to end.

And today's windy weather is shaking down the rest of the leaves.

If the sky remains clear tonight, it might be amazing to walk outside at night. Screaming wind, starry black sky and tree branches reaching like scary fingers in the moonlight.
One thing I wish I could get back is my enthusiasm towards nightly walks. Last time I did that was a year ago... Maybe after I have healed enough, I might get it back. I might get some other things back, that I lost.

I've just done a lot of thinking and I've done some confronting with difficult subjects, but with my medication I have been able to find enjoyment from different things. That's one thing I thought I had lost. Also laughter is something that - blissful enough - I've done after a long, long time.

Maybe also the upcoming Halloween has got my mind cheered up. I've done some decorations for the small party, like paper bats flying on the walls (and my cats try to keep on hunting them although I put a lot of time and effort into making those things), pumpkin heads and a creepy tree. Today I started making small skulls out of dough, since I can't afford decent modeling clay. I know this great clay, that's white and it gets hard really fast, so if I remember correctly, you had to mold it with a bit of water, and after that it would get hard by itself and then you could put paint on it. That clay is great, and not too expensive for making small things, but I'm a bit broke, so I really needed to use my imagination. Go all McGyver on Halloween.

It's a shame I can't take photographs of the stuff I've done.

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I know that my blog is quite moderate and has no important thought-provoking content, but this is just my corner for small trivial things. And to share about my experience on heartbreak, being single, asexual, goth and metal head and to tell about things that interest me. And for a bonus I will share things that might interest any readers, like webshops or whatever I find.

I don't like to write about anything topical or politically important because there's just so much one person can take, and talking about dead serious problems especially while being medically depressed isn't appealing. 
I found out my limits when I was a teenager. I was so angry and disappointed with humanity I found the state of the world overwhelming. After the realization that I, being just one person, could do only so much, I decided to block out the news of the world from my mind. I read and watch the news everyday, but I also lock them out from my mind so they don't really get to me. I sometimes talk about politics with my friends and family, how the world is going to hell and we are being sucked into a current or a hurricane, and we can only try to survive in this world, but reality is too hard for anyone to bare. Me talking about bad things - although realistic things - would make anyone depressed, not just me. So I will leave the horror's of reality to someone else.

Instead I will keep on writing stuff about myself. To whoever might be interested. At least I find some personal problems in other blogs to be interesting. When some blogger is fighting with depression I feel sympathy and I like to read how that person gets along with their life.

 

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The Coven of Witches

Single-life really ain't bad. You can fulfill whatever whims and desires you get. 

Want to watch a movie? Any kind of movie you want? 

- Definitely.

Want to buy ice-cream and eat the whole damn thing by yourself? 

- Go ahead.

Want to buy things for yourself even if that means that you might have to eat porridge for the rest of the month? 

- You do that.

Want to paint/play video games all day/night long?

- Why not!

Those are just one examples when you're the king of your own house and you make the decisions for yourself. You have yourself to pamper. And maybe some pets too. 

Maybe couples who are perfect for each other can be individuals at the same time they're together, but I haven't experienced that. My individuality was reduced - besides many other things, but I like now that my home is my home again. I can do whatever I want with it. And it's slowly starting to look more and more amazing. If I had more money I would get some taxidermy-things and oddities, but I make do with what I have and what I can create.

(Could not find the artist of these Halloween-comic strips. Inform me if you know the name.)

I've been watching way too many tattoo reality tv-shows. It's just part of my relaxing after work, and I don't want to start watching any good new series because I need to study (and I need to focus a lot more now because that hasn't gone so well lately). 

Tattoo artist is one profession I have thought about since it's one way to stay as an artist and do art for a living, but it's a really difficult road. I'm not completely ruling it out, though. Let's first see what happens with the entrance exams in the spring. Then I know how many back-up plans I will need. I say "back-up" but what I mean is that I have few plans for my future, and all of them are quite hard to achieve, so I need to try my luck with all of them to see what will be the road for me. I don't mean to make anything sound trivial or unimportant.

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American Horror Story: Coven has already started airing new episodes. The first episode was amazing, just pure gold!

Pumpkin Rot

All kinds of creepy critters have invaded my walls and mirrors. It's partly for my small Halloween celebration with couple of my friends (not due until the end of the month though) but most of all for me to enjoy. Since of my current situation in life, I guess I feel the need to enjoy all kinds of smaller things in life, like doing something creative. And this is the type of guy I am. I sometimes feel like I should explain myself to other people, who might not understand this, and I might write something about that someday, but now I will just shut up.

And I know I was supposed to introduce the game Bioshock (even though I bet there's not many who do not know it), but I think I might leave that to another day.