I also noticed yesterday, that I can't speak about some of the people I had to leave behind in the summer. I cannot say their names anymore. I can think about that and a lot of hard things, but I cannot talk about them. I really hope I will be able to find the words in therapy. If I can't tell the therapist about those things, they might come to the conclusion that I won't need their assistance. The things I was able to tell, with some difficulty and vague words, were not understood completely since there's a lot more behind the things I said. The things I said will not seem like uncommon or more or less nontrivial problems, because I wasn't able to tell the whole story. I guess I'm writing about this because I find this whole thing shocking. And I'm still writing about the things I know since there are other people fighting their own personal demons, and they might find the fact of having other's doing the same comforting.
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Sol Invictus - In a Garden Green
This is love, This is hate
This is chance, This is fate
These the rich, These the poor
This is peace, This is war
In a Garden Green
This is dark, This is light
This is wrong, This is right
These the strong, These the weak
These awake, These asleep
In a Garden Green
These to hide, These to seek
These to laugh, these to weep
These build , these destroy
This a girl, This a boy
In a Garden Green
These are flowers, These are weeds
These are healthy , These diseased
These will bloom, These will rot
This the tomb, This the cot
This a path, This a wall
This a plough, This a sword
This is marble, This is clay
This a throne, This a grave
In a Garden Green
Is God Good
is God Bad
Is God Happy
Is God Sad
Is God Honest
is God Sly
Is God alive
or did God Die
In a Garden Green
And one of the saddest songs from Nine Inch Nails, "All the love in the world". When I feel like I'm sinking into the depths of the Great Below, Nine Inch Nails will be there to take me down. Even though Trent Reznor makes really depressing and sad music, he makes one of the most beautiful sounds with the most touching lyrics in the world. Desperation, melancholy and beauty go seamlessly together.
Nine Inch Nails - All the Love in the World
Watching all the insects march along
seem to know just right where they belong
smears a face reflecting in the chrome
hiding in the crowd I'm all alone
no one's heard a single word I've said
they don't sound this good outside my head
it looks as though the past is here to stay
I've become a million miles a...
why do you get all the love in the world?
why do you get all the love in the world?
why do you get all the love in the world?
all the jagged edges disappear
colors all look brighter when you're near
the stars are all afire in the sky
sometimes I get so lonely I could...
why do you get all the love in the world?
why do you get all the love in the world?
why do you get all the love in the world?
why do you get all the love in the world?
why do you get all the love in the world?
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