You'll break my will, You'll sell my soul, You'll take my heart and replace it with a gaping hole - and step on me"

I'm usually a hardcore metal head, but since metal-music is so intense and arouses some really powerful feelings - at least the good bands do - that I can't listen to it at this mental state I'm in. I've usually listened to one of my favourite bands, Nine Inch Nails at this time of the year, but I guess that won't happen this year. 
All I can listen to, is some lighter music. Dark cabaret is something I've quite recently found and I liked it. It appeals to the history-geek in me and I also like the sinister themes it has. It - like rock-music, is lighter music to my standards.

Nine Inch Nails

"The Line Begins To Blur"

There are things that I said I would never do

There are fears that I cannot believe have come true

For my soul is too sick and too little and too late

And my self I have grown to weary to hate

The more I stay in here

The more it's not so clear

The more I stay in here

The more I disappear

As far as I have gone

I knew what side I'm on

But now I'm not so sure

The line begins to blur

Is there somebody on top of me?

I don't know I don't know

Isn't anybody stopping me?

I don't know I don't know

Well I'm trying to hold my breath

I don't know I don't know

Just how far down can I go?

I don't know I don't know I don't know

As I lie here and stare

The fabric starts to tear

It's far beyond repair

And I don't really care

As far as I have gone

I knew what side I'm on

But now I'm not so sure

The line begins to blur

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(Had a song here)

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Nine Inch Nails

"Something I Can Never Have"

I still recall the taste of your tears.

Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.

My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.

Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore.

[Chorus:]

You make this all go away.

You make this all go away.

I'm down to just one thing.

And I'm starting to scare myself.

You make this all go away.

You make this all go away.

I just want something.

I just want something I can never have

You always were the one to show me how

Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.

This thing is slowly taking me apart.

Grey would be the color if I had a heart.

Come on tell me

[Chorus]

In this place it seems like such a shame.

Though it all looks different now,

I know it's still the same

Everywhere I look you're all I see.

Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.

Come on tell me

[Chorus]

I just want something I can never have